Simoun's World

It has been a while since i posted something here in livejournal. Nevermind the writer's block. I will not let my hands or my mind do the typing, rather, i will let my heart to the sharing.

The meaning of life entails a series of questions about the purpose and significance of life in general. This concept, or whatever we call it brings about a variety of questions such as Who are We? Why are we here? What is life all about? This has always been a topic of debate, be it philosophical and religious.

I have no idea where i am going with this, but maybe what i am trying to say is... Why am i here? Have i been truly living and not just have been "existing"?

What is my raison d'être? Will i just be a shooting star and simply forgotten shortly after i show myself? What will my tomb say?

These quandaries makes me reflect on some of the different facets of my life.

Career - Should i deviate? or should i stay with my current job?

Don't get me wrong. I am happy working in Unilever. I think i am doing a fantastic job at work, and really happy about the culture and the growth the company offers... but why am i here? am i meant to be a big marketing tycoon in the future? Or i meant to achieve my dreams of having my own talk show some day? Or should i involve myself with more charity work? What brings sparkles in my eyes? So for now, i guess i'll do whatever helps me sustain my lifestyle.
More than a question of what work i should be doing, maybe what i am asking is, have i really made a mark? Have i been contributing to the betterment of society?

Social - I have so many friends, but who am i for them?

I'm so glad that God gave me the gift of social skills and empathy. In my eyes, i have friends who are the hopeless romantics, the flirts, the bitches, the virgins, the geeks, the dumb ones, the heartthrobs, the clowns, and the ones who can simply count on anytime. But who am i for them? Am i simply the funny friend who idolizes
Jolina, does charity work and the career-driven one? Or do i have a deeper meaning to them? Do they really know who i am? Or a better question is... Do i really know who i am?
When people die, can they say that they were able to achieve self-actualization and really know who they truly are? Or are we forever doomed and not given the privilege to know who we are fully? So last two questions on this topic...
1. Who am i in the eyes of other people?
2. As much as i know who i am, and be happy about it, is there still a part of me that i need to delve deeper into? What else can i discover about myself? (like a mutant... what other powers do i have?)

Love - Will i ever find this? Or am i meant to be single?

I am the type of guy who enjoys weddings, introducing a partner to friends, getting to know someone more, and all the glitter that comes with being in a relationship. Unfortunately, i have been in two failed relationships. Is my independence and being driven to achieve my goals hampering me from being with someone? With all my quirks and very unique personality, will anyone ever see past my good-looking face (this is my blog so am free to say this!!! ^_^)? I guess we all want that special someone in my life. I don't have it yet, but i am really happy already.
Does it mean am ok with being single for the rest of my life? Is love worth the risk of not being happy if ever it ends badly? Or should i just risk it and go for it? No more if's. No more but's. But just fight for it?

Ironically, these thoughts make me smile. I guess I'm just excited to really know where my life is heading. If only i can travel in time and see where i will be 5 years from now.

Don't get me wrong. I am happy where i am right now, and how i have been living life. I love the fact that i have matured so much from my past post here in livejournal. But thinking about the future... have i been maximizing my existence? How far am i from self-actualization? Will i go to my grave with a smile? Or with a look that asks "What if?"

Luckily, i am only 26. I still have a long way to go. I am happy that i see myself growing more and more each day.

I will be epic. But how much? I guess only God and the future can answer that.

What's your take?


I took the courage the legend of chun li last night with some of my closest friends, despite the fact that the first one sucked big time (tacky... and was a complete nonsense).

And after watching the movie, i wasn't amazed, but i actually enjoyed it a bit.

What I enjoyed
1. Kristin Kruek was really good.
- Her acting was amazing :)
2. Fight scenes.
- Maybe because am into the whole wushu thing (was phil team before), so i really appreciated all the fight scenes.
3. Personification of the characters.
- I think the first movie failed, because it tried too much to look like the video game. The movie wasn't actually that tacky.

What I didn't enjoy
Only one thing... the story
- Yea.. parts of the story were really nice... but there were a lot of loop holes. (which i won't place here of course. i dont want to be a spoiler. hehe). Character development was also a major flop...
- I guess the thing is, street fighter is about ken and ryu. Having a street fighter movie without the two, is like having batman without batman.

Will I recommend it?

It's fine, if you're into action and martial arts. But if you're looking for an intellectual movie, go find something else :)

Yes. i admit that i am probably one of the biggest fans of charmed ever...

some fan did some sort of video years ago...below is the video that the fan did.. sigh :)

it's a nice video... :)

till now, i still wish that WB would still come up with a show with what happened to their kids...

1. after trying several attempts on my russian split, i tried to go faster so that i can even jump higher. unfortunately, i wasn't able to lock my toe pick, thus, i landed on my left wrist, instead of my foot. now its starting to swell and hurts like crazy.

2. was practicing my lutz and loop jumps today, and something happened with my landing. i semi-twisted my ankle, and now the right side of my right foot hurts :(

3. while doing my flip jump, i accidentally scared by blade against my right left (in the attempt to clip it). its the fourth time that's happened to me. flop.

i hope ill be fine soon...

:P

here are some videos that show why skating isnt such a safe sport after all...

About a year ago, i posted an entry that i wanna try figure skating. Well, after a year, i was able to do Freestyle 4 (and some above) elements already (yay!)

levels are (5 basic levels from pre-alpha to delta) then freestyle 1-10 :)

Feel free to join me skate whenever you feel like it! :D


Sit Spin




Russian Split Jump




Upright Spin




Loop Jump



And others :) yay!!!

I’ll attempt to answer one of the most debated topics that ever existed in our society. Ironically, it is also known to be one of the most popular entries in an autograph: Define Love.

I remember that during my younger days, I would write synonyms such as affection, passion, etc. to give an impression that I am profound. Thinking about it now, it was plain stupidity.

So what is love?

The psychologist Sternberg defined it to be the relationship structure that upholds three dimensions: intimacy, commitment and passion, which is also knows as consummate love.

Children may just be too naïve to understand and simply define it to be blind.

Musicians may say that it is like a violin. The music may stop now and then, but the strings remain forever.

Mark Twain even defines it as the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

Obviously, no one has ever captured the true essence of love, and I doubt anyone will ever. Love is all about the heart. Once you use your mind… that is not love. That is rationalization. While the above definitions try to rationalize what it is, and give all these highfalutin flowery words, I choose to give in to my emotions and surrender to it.

Yes. Surrender. That is how I want to define love.

I surrender to pain.

I know that I feel love when I give up all my fears and anxieties, because no matter the amount of pain, it is worth it.

I surrender my security.

I know that I feel love when I surrender safety and give up security and choose the unsecured. I surrender to the unknown.

I surrender myself.

I know that I feel love when I surrender my selfishness and do everything for another person/ or a task unconditionally.

I surrender…

So how do I want to define it?

Love is a complete surrender to fate and to the true essence of a heart.

wohoo!!! a lot of people are noticing that i have been losing weight na! that's great! anyway.... for the bigger concern...

am thinking about going bald again. what do you think?!??

Dear all,

hi! my phone crashed (again) and i lost all my contacts. would appreciate if you could send me an SMS so that i could store your number (09177931143). thanks and happy new year!

simoun

after weeks of not posting an entry, i have decided to post a dilemna in my life right now...








Hmm... i wanna do one of the three.. which should i choose? hmm... (care to join me? hehe!!!)

My evening started when I met with some of my friends in greenbelt. because GB5 was already open, we went to eat at fish out of the water. the food was really great! like my friend jay said, "may tamang sipa ng anghang" hehe! there were set menus, so we had some cuttlefish, then we had soup, salad, pasta and some dessert. i highly recommend it! :D the resto is supposed to be owned by the same group of red crab, sumo sam, etc. :)

after that, we went to timezone to play some games. it was a fun... and i also bumped into a very old friend migs. :)

after that, we went to cream. i bumped into some people from college and stayed a while with some office mates. the music was good. dj sheridan was really good! the liquor ban spolied the fun though... :( maybe that's why almost everyone popped during that night... because of the stupid liquor ban. hehe! :)